Suicidal Grayness Article

This is an Article by Taylor Jones about the Gray Area of Suicidal Thoughts

http://themighty.com/2016/03/when-youre-suicidal-but-you-dont-want-to-die/

The truth is there is a grayness to everything.(criminal/noncriminal, disabled/non-disabled..etc)..but some labels can be rather insidious. They can be obtrusive and can encourage a domino effect of actions.

Telling people that they are suicidal... it's a very unforgiving label, and we give it to the most vulnerable people. People who are actively seeking help, or at least crying out for it.

When we should be actively including, a label can create a huge wall of exclusion.

 When someone approaches me with suicidal tendencies, I'm always caught between encouraging them to seek help and encouraging them to avoid being labeled.

Since once people are labeled, they fall into it. The expectation becomes the reality. It becomes hard for them to build themselves up.

Even me, who understands they dynamics of this process, I fall into these traps. When someone labels themselves as suicidal, it can be awkward to help. A label conjures up fear. What if your advice gets scribbled on some suicide note?

 What's the rational thing to do to a suicidal person? Lock them up, and turn your back, when they are not looking. Tell yourself, 'the professionals will handle this'

..but really what you did was turn your back against a fellow human being...

... that label of being suicidal made that action seem like the most rational thing in the world....

 when in reality, it's just fucked up.

The Hunt Begins...猎人 [lièrén]

Ok, I'm pretty much done with diarrhea, and I sent out two job applications. They were not beautifully polished, but I reckon my chances of getting those jobs were low anyway.

Despite this, I did it..... So, yay me!

I have two potential gigs coming up, nothing to brag about, but it might be enough to let me leave the house without guilt. I'm going to participate in a study about country music, and a guy was interested in hiring me to work for low pay on a pyrotechnics crew.

I'm pretty excited about potentially doing some pyrotechnics stuff. Truly, this is where electrical stuff becomes fun. If you don't have the capacity to make stuff work electrically, you can always just blow it up.

Despite my eagerness to blow shit up, it's important to keep a level head about this. I don't want my own face blowing off. So if it looks sketchy, it is sketchy. I need to walk away when it gets too dangerous because nothing is going to buy me my life back.

Wow! I just received a response back from Savory Seattle tours, they want me to make a 3-minute video of me talking about the stuff in my refrigerator and want it by Sunday midnight. Sounds sketch and a lot of work.

Oh well, it sounds fun. I'll dress conservatively, and if it ends up on a grotesque porn site, mother I failed you.

These are the 3 companies I contacted.

Savory Seattle Food Tours
Ask Survey Center
Oxbow Farm