Abandon

I've been busy, and overall, it's been great. The Manufacturing Academy will end soon (Sept 16th). Though, I will have Dirt Corps. (The picture above)

After September 16th, I'm going to spray paint kids at the Fair again. It's only 4 days of work, but it's going to be fun.

As a nugget of good news, our house passed inspection and a new lease was signed for another year. Yay!

Sam has been stressed and is on the edge of breaking. I cleaned the room and bought him new bed sheets. It helped, but it's not enough. Overall, September is going to be a long month.

The last few days have been frustrating....I've been feeling so dumb and ugly, it's been unbearable...I went Caving last weekend, and it took it out of me. (I know I'm avoiding caving b/c of WNS but  the prospect of an all Grrs caving trip was irresistible...and the gear was new and unused... Also, I only went to one cave... My gear is still in a bag, waiting to be decontaminated. )

I'm almost chickened out of caving, but I had no where to sleep Saturday night and decided that it was better to camp with the caving group than to sleep by myself in a car at a rest stop.. Saturday wasn't a waste though, I did see Lava Canyon, and it was glorious, and on Sunday, I crawled through the Red River Cave with the caving group.

I suppose what scares me about caving is not dying in a cave. Dying in a cave seems pleasant. I'm afraid of being left alone to die. The prospect of being abandoned to the darkness.. is horrifying.