Automated Systems

I just cried at Sam, my lover, because he didn't want to listen about my work or even about my life. I understand that it's boring, but it is my life. For him, I spend hours listening about recipes that I never cook, and then he doesn't even want to hear about my day. It just makes me feel so unimportant.

(Of course he solved this disagreement of ours by switching the words 'boring' with 'fascinating' and hoping I wouldn't notice...it's irritating)

It doesn't help that at my work, I'm basically disposable trash. It's not a question if I'm going to get fired, it's more of a question of when. The high picking rates at Amazon seem downright impossible. They are designed for a machine, and in the next 5 years, the job I'm doing right now is going to be completely automated.

(I did however figure out that since the machine calculates your average rate. It's better to scan extremely fast and then a little slow than have somewhat high constant picking rate with slow periods)

My whole experience at Amazon has been creepy. The niceness of my bosses mixed with the rigidity of the picking rates makes me feel like I'm being brainwashed.

Everything in the system wants you to think less and act more. The more I think, the slower my pick rates and so, if I want to keep my job, I better not think at all.

(The software calculates resource allocation better than I can and knows what's going on. I just follow the orders, and basically, the machine is my master.)

Likewise when they tell me in a month I might be able to get healthcare, It motivates me to pick more. I want this job because it could give me benefits, but then I start to wonder if all this talk about benefits is deceptive and that the fine print is that I won't be here for a month or that benefits will be available only to my managers. ..freaking illusions

Anyways, despite the positive atmosphere of Amazon, I feel less than human and am waiting for the day when Amazon is honest.

(This was a bio-battery from a long time ago. I had the dream that humans could alleviate the energy crises by finding biological solutions)