Corporate Affairs

Without my thermals, my body wasn't very cold, but due to a psychological disturbance, my soul was a tad chilly.

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Onward, to my real point.
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I just got fired from Amazon.

Just when I was about to start my shift, I discovered a message on my phone. The account manager at smx staffing needed to talk to me before my shift. Pessimistically connecting the dots, I figured I was about to be fired. Even if I didn't get fired, the account manager at the staffing company had nothing truly pleasant to say.

So I threw my phone into the endless trash pit ,that is my car, and I drove away. I haven't been to work in two days, and if I wasn't fired before, I certainly am fired now.

Why didn't I call the account manager back?

Well, I've been working at Amazon for nearly a month and a half, and I've watched 70-80% of the people either quit or get fired. I can't say who quits or who gets fired. People just stop showing up.

I've thought about getting fired a lot, and the real damage of getting fired is not losing the job. Don't get me wrong, that sucks.... but what will hurt is the emotional rejection. You throw yourself at a company, you get used, and then, they toss you away. Call me a romantic, but that sounds like a break up.

So when I got the call, I didn't call back. I need that vagueness, that sense of control. I need to know that when people/companies are about to piss on me...  I can just walk away

I don't need an explanation from Amazon why they are firing me. It could be my low rate on Friday. It could be that I accidentally breached a security barrier, while trying to help a coworker. It could be that I haven't shown up in the past two days..whatever

All I really need to know is that, Amazon is my equivalent of a one-night-stand. Me and Amazon had a quickie. I don't really need or want to know why Amazon isn't there anymore....  Because either way I know that, Amazon is a shithead... Regardless of what I did. 

It's not going to be my last- corporate- toss around in the hay. Lately, in the world of jobs, I haven't been a commitment girl. Just can't find a handsome company, who will sweep me off my feet and tell me to do the dishes for adequate pay.

I just need to be rescued by some employer who will take care of me. Instead, I'm surrounded by scum, who talk about productivity, like men who compare the sizes of their dicks. 

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