Feeling Bad

 I can't change it, and I don't want to listen.

I feel too bad and guilty. Before taking a World Beat Class, I was agonizing to the point of tears about talking to my friend Lia. She is a childhood friend, and I know her problems are going to be severe. I also know that I have limited capacity to help her. As a result of this whole process, I'm just going to feel guilty, worthless and awful. So, no more of it.

I don't think Lia can pay her rent, and I don't think it is going to get better. The rents are going to rise, and that rising rent is going to force Lia and her mother out of their place. I don't want that, and I want to help. But I don't know of any long term solution.

 It's just awful for Lia and her mom.

I can't stop the process of gentrification. I can't pay Lia's rent. My solution is to give her enough exercise so that maybe she feels better and can think of a viable solution for her and her mom. It's not great, I know, but I do believe exercise can change people's dispositions. Apart from that, I guess I can lend an ear and pray.

Shit, I feel bad.